indulging

I hope you will all indulge me a little.  I am missing the writing I was doing during Aly's treatments and all.  Maybe I'll have to start a diary or something that I can write in every day!
Today, I've been in a funky sort of mood.  Maybe because I listened to the KS95 radio-athon for Gillette's Children's Hospital on my way to work.  The story was about a 3 year old boy with a brain tumor, much like Aly's, on his optic nerves with vision loss.  I didn't hear the beginning of the story and for some reason his tumor is inoperable.  He is being treated with radiation to try to keep the tumor under control.  Anyways, it made me sad and brought up all the memories of what Aly has gone through.  I was almost happy that I had to go into work because I think I would've sat in my car and just had a nice cry!  I know my women friends can understand that!  :)
I am so very proud of both my kids.  Aly is such a trooper.  She still has been having days of being tired and it doesn't help that we drag her out to her brother's hockey games, like last night!  She is soooo happy he is a senior this year, so she knows there is an end in sight.  We received her report card, in the mail today, and a couple of her teachers had comments about what a positive role model she is!  She also got a, "great kid".  She sees that and says, "thank you Mr. O, but..."  Then she kind of trailed off on her sentence which gave me the impression she didn't know what that was all about.  So, I had to tell her, "you ARE a great kid!"
I've got to brag about Tom as well.  I know he won't like me doing so, but too bad.  It is a mom's right!  If any of you attend any of the hockey games, take a close look at the back of Tom's helmet.  I had some grey ribbon (brain cancer) stickers sitting around, which I had been using for making cards.  He said he wanted one for his helmet.  Every time I see that sticker on his helmet, my heart is warm.  Not many of you have seen my kids together.  All they do is pick on each other and antagonize each other.  It is a rare occasion when they show love towards one another.  This little sticker means a lot!  I told Aly, the other day, "your brother may pick on you more than anything else, but the fact that he put a sticker on his helmet shows that he cares about you a lot."
Anyways, I hope you are all finding some joy during this holiday season.  Usually you don't have to look too hard even if you are going through difficult times.  Thanks for letting me indulge...